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 There is nothing better in the morning for me than a warm cup of coffee. Today's coffee was especially delicious, maybe it was the fact that I had not enough sleep or her sitting next to me.


I was thinking today about the absurd idea which is the new year's resolution. Fuck that, which one of you wake up on the 1st and does not eat anymore chocolate for the rest of the year ? See , every year we follow the same pattern, we celebrate our birthday, make plans for holiday, buy large amount of food before Christmas and celebrate new year. It made me think about me when I was just a kid, and believe me that young version of me would not give a crap about any of that. My long future plan would be tomorrow's trip to the forest. Don't you think when we were young we had much less to think about , it was just us. Let me tell you a story about kids.
 "Boa constrictors swallow their prey whole, without chewing it. After that they are not able to move, and they sleep through the six months that they need for digestion." I pondered deeply, then, over the adventures of the jungle. And after some work with a colored pencil I succeeded in making my first drawing. My Drawing Number One. It looked like this:

I showed my masterpiece to the grown-ups, and asked them whether the drawing frightened them. But they answered: "Frighten? Why should any one be frightened by a hat?" My drawing was not a picture of a hat. It was a picture of a boa constrictor digesting an elephant. But since the grown-ups were not able to understand it, I made another drawing: I drew the inside of the boa constrictor, so that the grown-ups could see it clearly. They always need to have things explained. 

 And now I have a question. Are you the kind of person that can see a hat or that: 

And now I can only imagine you are thinking yes of course I see only elephants in my life. And in my opinion you are wrong. You do not see elephants, not me , not your cousin, not your smart grandad, no one. We see both, there are times we see elephants but most of our time we are looking at hats.There are only personalities that try to look more carefully and notice the elephant.


I go to work and I'm fucking surrounded by hats, I go to school and there is even more of them. So question is what is the solution, to get rid of hats. Mine is being with her. Also that is the reason I am going to quit my job soon.

My name is Dorian, I'm a fucking weirdo, and I'm looking for an elephant.